No True Genius

The true genius shudders at incompleteness - and usually prefers silence to saying something which is not everything it should be. --Edgar Allan Poe


The issue is I have an abundance of incomplete thoughts running around my head.  You know-- the beginnings of concepts that lead to clarity that have not fully come to fruition yet.  So, I am doing a lot of pondering.


I ran across this over at Defer & Submit and wonder if maybe I'll do it too.  Sometimes direct questions are a good way to get the mental juices flowing again and work things out one thing at a time.  We shall see.


Have a lovely hump day tomorrow readers!


Love,


Jane

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So, we're playing around with things, trying to figure out what works best for us.

John had a realization that went something like this-- "I can't abide the thought of hitting you... but I have no problem causing you pain."

And the truth of that statement was made quite clear to me this morning as I trekked up and down a set of 59 stairs... 30 times with him grinning like the cheshire cat at the bottom.

While we aren't sure if discipline is going to be part of TTWD for us or not, we're not completely opposed to the idea.  This week we played around with the things.  We both have bad habits.  We agreed on a few of mine that could be addressed.  For every time I fail-- I have to run steps 10x.  In our new neighborhood there is a park down the street with a set of 59 steps leading up to an elementary school.  This week I had three "infractions" (for lack of a better word).  So, it was 30 times up and down the stairs.

It may not be spanking-- but I promise my tail is gonna be sore for DAYS to come.

We're going to try this for a while.

Apart from this, John is overseeing my fitness plan in general-- as he was a pre-elite athlete in college and I got in trouble for reading too much as a kid.  Stairs are specifically for "discipline" though, and won't be used for regular work outs (thank GOD).

 I don't really think of it as "discipline" in a "you're in trouble" way.  It's more of a conditioning/behavior modification thing.  I have bad habits-- this is a method for John to help me break them.  He's my coach, among other things.

As far as this morning went, however, I'm rather strong, but my cardio-pulminary fitness is lacking for sure.  I do yoga several times a week and can balance on my head, arms and one leg.  But, this was something my body was not accustomed to.  My legs were shaking early and by 30 I was thanking my lucky stars that I skipped breakfast before hand

I'd rather be doing this.

In any case- I have a hot date with some epsom salts tonight-- for sure.  And, as much as I didn't love it, I think this is a really good 'step up' for us in our relationship.